Skins
“Here you are beside me again:
Memories of my companions killed in the war,
The olive branch of time;
Memories that make only a single memory
As a hundred skins make only a single coat
As these thousands of wounds make only a single newspaper article...”
I. THE SKIN OF THE OTHER
The quoits have acquired the air,
The polonaise is done;
Be still, my hands, be still,
It is the very dead of winter,
And its chisel bequeaths
A livelier repose than death’s.
Old man, you surface all the time,
And drown us in your curls,
Every time.
Aubergine fingernails, eternal acedia,
Tralaticious sorrow, your snigger.
Squamulose Snake, you may shed now,
Let the poison die.
Ensconcing in your bed of thorns,
How can you maintain fake amity?
The coulternebs are stale,
The seagulls have melted,
Where are you, o’ Ocean?
This uniseriate gassho,
Let it be done,
The mind’s renegation is too much:
And these are our own abjects,
These, our own regrets.
“…The day empties its images
Like a cup or a room.
The moon's crook whitens,
Thin as the skin seaming a scar…”
II. THE SKIN OF THE BELOVED
You see me a rude owl,
A white patch of kiss upon the tree,
A frown in the mirror,
A lonely victory.
I am scattered in the winds of darkness,
I am thrown to the shards of a peeler,
I have no name, no form,
I live in the temple of the bone.
I do not know
How soon the servant Death
Can dream my genesis
In that bright anchor-ground
Where all topiary lay.
I do not know
How soon I can brush off my own sands
From the twisted words of the hourglass.
I do not know
How soon my own clay
Can lose its virginity.
I do not know
If I can incinerate my own soul.
Fighting with the singing of birds,
With the marvelous aching of the stairs,
With the staggering of time,
And the foray of memories,
I am weary.
The porphyry
Barren.
The plumage is rotten,
The wings decayed,
There’s no Icarus
By the dismayed.
I climb my own prayer,
I stride my own womb,
I am a ghost-town
In my own black tomb.
Let me pollute,
Let me pillage,
Let me commute,
I am not a sage.
Stand upon your plinth,
Act like a fool;
I have my daughter
To drool.
If I cannot preserve my sad diagnosis,
I do not deserve to be down with cold,
I must carry my own prognosis
To the sold.
Stand upon your scaffold,
Act like a God:
In your moribund mold,
There is no Sod.
“…for years, I have eaten dust
And dried plates with my dense hair.
And seen my strangeness evaporate,
Blue dew from dangerous skin…”
III. THE SKIN OF OWN BODY
I can sense insects crawling up my hair:
Flickering like a star,
Distilling smoke,
They invade the within
As easily as faith.
There is no snake-charmer
Who plays the tune of my blood,
I sway like a serpent
To the evening sun.
The river is without us,
The sea is nowhere near,
Wells color my water,
Red, mottled, like cut limbs.
There was a sound!
There is an end to the withering.
Teach us to care and not to care,
Teach us to sit still
Even among these cushions.
“Skin doesn’t have roots,
It peels away easy
As paper.”
IV. THE SKIN OF OWN HEART
We are the light brigade,
And we aren’t just six hundred,
We charge but into nothingness,
We are but to throb and die.
And everything sinks below the verge,
Everything is sad and fresh,
Burning and flowing crimson,
Everything ends.
“Here lies the body of this world.”
V. THE SKIN OF OWN SOUL
“Pus-filled growths, cratered skin, green rings under
The eyes, puffy fingers clasping thigh-bones,
Skull splashed with vague liver-spots
Like leprous growths sprouting on old walls...”
The Chinese jar is hardly still,
Nor does it move when it is:
Its constituents are the same as ours,
And we court war.
Glory be to God for faded things,
He fathers-forth, though He does change,
For He resides in the mind of contradictions;
Understand Him.
I am a parcel of successful strivings tied,
By a bond I, myself, created,
Working day and night,
But which Time clutched,
And hurled waste unto the oblivion.
I have been told to reason by the hand,
But hand, like lead, falls hopelessly.
I have been told to reason by the foot,
But foot, like gold, flies way too high.
Break no promise, bright with flesh,
Bring no memories to the yard, to throw,
Snap no tears by the lash:
The grave is done, none shall rise.
I wither not, nor do I die.